Children Cancer Stories by Rukh Yusuf - Blog # 269

I am Rukh Yusuf, Clinical Pharmacist, also specialized in Total Parenteral Nutrition and Bone Marrow Transplant. I have worked in the Pediatric Oncology unit of a public hospital. The mission of this blog is to bring to you the real-life stories of child patients suffering from cancer. Cancer is still a difficult disease to handle and treat. However, when it strikes the children, some so young that they cannot even speak, their agony is beyond expression and words. Let us pray especially for children suffering from cancer for early and complete remission. May Allah shower His Merciful Blessings upon them. Aameen.
The Little Girl Who Still Loved Butterflies
Every evening, as the sun painted golden streaks across the courtyard, five-year-old Momina would run after butterflies.
She never managed to catch one.
Perhaps that was why she loved them so much.
"One day, I'll hold one in my hands," she would tell her mother, stretching her tiny fingers toward the fluttering wings before bursting into laughter when they escaped again.
For her family, those were ordinary days, the kind of days we rarely realize are precious until they begin to change.
It started with small things.
Momina sometimes rubbed one eye while watching cartoons. Occasionally she tilted her head strangely when looking at picture books. Her parents thought she might need glasses. Children often do, they reassured themselves.
Then one evening, while scrolling through family photographs, her father noticed something unusual.
In every picture, one of Momina's eyes reflected a strange white glow.
At first, it seemed insignificant. A camera flash. A trick of light.
But a parent's heart often notices what words cannot explain.
Within days, appointments replaced playground visits. Questions replaced certainty.
The family entered a world they had never imagined, a world of specialists, scans, unfamiliar medical terms, and waiting rooms filled with anxious faces.
Then came the diagnosis.
Retinoblastoma.
The room seemed to fall silent.
For a few moments, nobody heard the explanations that followed. Nobody remembered the diagrams or treatment plans. The only thing that remained was the feeling that life had suddenly divided itself into two parts: before that day and after it.
Momina, however, was mostly concerned about something else.
"Can we go home now?" she asked softly.
Her parents smiled through tears.
Children have a remarkable way of reminding us what truly matters.
Over the past six months, hospital visits have become woven into the fabric of Momina's childhood.
She now recognizes nurses by name. She knows which waiting room has the colorful fish painted on the wall. She knows that after some appointments she gets a sticker, and after difficult days her mother always buys her strawberry ice cream.
Yet none of this has been easy.
For a five-year-old, the hardest part is not understanding why everything is happening.
Momina doesn't understand scans.
She doesn't understand treatment protocols.
She doesn't understand why adults suddenly whisper when they think she isn't listening.
She only knows that some mornings begin earlier than they should, that hospitals smell different from home, and that her parents sometimes look worried even when they are smiling.
For her mother, every treatment day feels like holding her breath.
She packs snacks, water bottles, extra clothes, favorite toys, and endless hope into a single bag.
Then she sits beside her daughter and pretends to be brave.
Not because she isn't afraid.
But because mothers often carry their fear quietly so their children don't have to.
Her father has learned a different kind of strength.
He has become an expert at balancing responsibilities no one prepares you for—work deadlines, medical appointments, financial concerns, and the constant desire to be present for every moment.
Some nights, after Momina falls asleep, he sits beside her bed a little longer than usual.
Just watching.
Just grateful.
Just praying for tomorrow.
Cancer does not arrive alone.
It brings uncertainty.
It brings exhaustion.
It brings endless questions that rarely have immediate answers.
But strangely, it also reveals things that might otherwise remain hidden.
It reveals the kindness of nurses who kneel down to speak at a child's eye level.
It reveals friends who call simply to ask, "How was today's appointment?"
It reveals grandparents whose prayers become stronger than ever.
And it reveals a resilience that families never knew they possessed.
Through all of this, Momina remains wonderfully, stubbornly five years old.
She still argues about bedtime.
She still leaves crayons without their caps.
She still believes butterflies are magical.
One afternoon after a hospital visit, she spotted a butterfly resting on a flower near the parking lot.
For once, she didn't chase it.
She simply stood there and watched.
"Look, Mama," she whispered.
The butterfly opened and closed its wings slowly in the sunlight.
Beautiful.
Fragile.
Strong.
For a brief moment, everything else faded away.
No appointments.
No reports.
No worries about tomorrow.
Just a little girl and a butterfly sharing the same patch of sunshine.
Her mother squeezed her hand.
In that moment, she realized something important.
The journey was difficult.
There were still challenges ahead.
There would be more appointments, more waiting, and more uncertainty.
But there would also be moments like this.
Moments of laughter.
Moments of courage.
Moments of ordinary childhood hidden inside extraordinary circumstances.
Today, six months into treatment, Momina's story is not simply a story about cancer.
It is a story about a little girl who continues to dream.
A family that continues to hope.
And the quiet courage found in showing up, day after day, even when the path ahead is unclear.
The butterfly eventually flew away.
Momina watched it disappear into the evening sky and smiled.
Then she reached for her mother's hand and began walking home.
And somehow, that felt like its own kind of victory.
Prayers for these little angels and their families who have to face this pain of cancer. May Allah make it easy for them. Aameen

